Happy is an understatement.....

I don't believe I have ever enjoyed warm weather as much as I do now. For  some strange reason my mood has been amazing. I have spent the last year trying to pull myself back together from "relapsing". I was so depressed at the fact that I was doing so good with my anxiety and then about 14 months ago I was right back where I started. I had no idea that was possible. It was a little easier to deal with since I had already been through it once but I still learned a lot this time. I have learned the way my body works and reacts which I believe will help me from having another relapse. 

For the past week I have been HAPPY.  I wouldn't describe it as a good mood, I would describe it as my-face-hurts-so-bad-from-smiling happy. I am interested in doing more things. Hell, I even joined the YMCA today. (I'm not exactly the exercising type) I am excited to spend all day outside with the little one. I look forward to waking up now. So many factors have influenced my mood and this blog is one of them. It has been a great way to see that people are going through the same thing. It still surprises me everyday that just a short time ago I was so terrified to do anything and now I am a fully functioning adult! LOL! 

I can't tell you specifically what to do to get you to that point but I can share my experiences with you and maybe you can learn from it. I'm creating a list of things that I want to accomplish this year. Some of the scary exciting things on this list are:

- Become completely comfortable with going to the movies (If you read my other posts you know I'm pretty terrified of going to the movies)

- Exercise frequent (it's very good for you if you have anxiety)

- Learn to drive a stick shift (Sounds stupid but I have anxiety while driving so If I can do that, I will feel sooo much better)

- Make it through another wedding! (2 of my best friends are getting hitched in October)

- Further my education in some way 

I could keep going but I think that's a good start! Pushing yourself is the ONLY way to overcome this!! Like I said before, SUCK IT UP!